I have decided that “WAIT” is a bad four letter word and should be a curse word. Or maybe I have made it into a curse word due to the way I feel about it and say it with such vile contempt! Wait. Wait. Wait.
That is where we are at. We are waiting on our LOA (letter of approval) from China. Until we get that paper then we are in a holding pattern. We actually haven’t been waiting that long for our LOA….32 days to be exact but who is counting. There are many people who are currently waiting over 100 days to get their approval. By no means should I be antsy at day 32. The wait (yes I even typed that word with sour feelings and a bit of spit for good measure) could be much longer.
I hate to admit it – but I know there is good in the wait. Not just because it gives me time to clean and re-organize the whole house in preparation for our little man. (Yes, that is what I am doing to keep myself busy and sane.) God is working in me – giving me faith, preparing me to be a mom of 4, using this time to speak new truths into my life.
John Ortberg said it perfectly, “Biblically, waiting is not just something we have to do until we get what we want. Waiting is part of the process of becoming what God wants us to be.”
True. I am holding on to that truth. But, it doesn’t make the wait any easier.
So, no update really. Just wanted you all to know if you happen to say that four letter word around me, I might spit in the dust. Don’t worry. I am not spitting at you. God is just teaching me a hard lesson and making me into who he wants me to be.